RECALLING CONTINUED

"Dev i cant carry on this relation anymore, i want a free life of mine..now i want to think about myself."

"And what about me..whats my mistake?"

"Your mistake is you loved me..see i have ditched 5 boys till date,you are 6th.."

"But I really love you Shona, i cant live without you.."

"Don't cry Dev its worth doing it...."

My eyes opened with a bang.It was a dream.i looked at the time it said 6 am and i moved towards the window and pulled the curtains aside.looking at the people moving beside my building i closed my eyes and that same sweet mesmerizing smile with tilted lips ran through my mind....
I wonder its been almost 7 years and her memories were still haunting me.
It was Anu, my love.We were great together ,planing and promising a hell lot of things and suddenly she broke up on the account of her free living.The mistake i was given was LOVE.How pathetic was that ,how hurting and painful was that, she just had no idea or may be she had.How can she forget all the promises and commitments she has given.I remember i was crying in front of her and she didn't even give a damn to that..Now i wonder why people say "MAN's WORD" not "woman's word.".Girls commit and  forget..


I opened my apple laptop and after 5 long years i opened Facebook.The home page asked for the username and  password and i filled the fields being so curious that this time i will find my friends .With every rotation of the busy circle on the browser my heart was going a bit heavier but at last it said the account has expired.That was obvious ,after all i was using my account after 5 years,it has to expire.sometimes in emotions we become so much excited that we start expecting possibilities from impossibilities.I wonder i was so much busy in making money that within last 5 years i didn't have a glimpse of Facebook,not even for a single time.
It is said right that successful people don't need anyone,NOT EVEN FACEBOOK....


Something clicked my mind and again i created a new Facebook account named DEV KUMAR ...i remember my last account was having the same name ,so i carried the same profile name so that my friends could easily recognize me...not to wonder i didn't add my real pic to the profile coz i never find myself handsome on pics..my face was now not photogenic as it use to be before...the brutalities and real experience of life had turned my face look older than  usual...
i randomly searched for ma friends on Facebook..thank god most of them had their real pic on profile..suddenly i remembered something..i quickly moved to my profile homepage and just below MESSAGES i found EVENT...i made a click to that and  a page opened ...i looked at the upright side of the page and there i saw CREATE EVENT...i made a click to that as well and quickly created an event...LETS MEET AGAIN FRIENDS BEFORE I DIE...PLACE:GOA....3/5/2019...

RECALLING

my marriage was fixed...after two months i was about  to go to my uncles place for my marriage to take place...
i don't know what the other guys must be thinking about getting married,whether they might be feeling excited or dull but as far as i was concerned...i was feeling like to be killed...as if i was bakra who smiles even after his head is sliced apart from his body.....


That day after the office i was moving towards my flat...living alone in Bangalore was neither too good nor too bad...good in the sense that i liked being alone and i can watch porn whenever i want...(that's what most of the guys without girl  do in free time...watch porn and fantasize ....in reality girls might put 100 conditions before u can do anything to them but while fantasy,u can do whatever u want...JUST WHATEVER..:-) T&C not applied...)and bad in the sense because sometimes i feel like m really alone,,i have no one to share my happiness ,my feelings, bad one as well.....anyways after all this was life for me...i took a shower and moved towards my bed room..i flopped myself on the cozy bed and switched on ma 51" LED television hanging on the wall..ac on and home theaters plugged in..i scanned through the channels quickly but didn't find anything interesting to watch..suddenly i saw one of ma favorite movies was coming "ZINDAGI NAA MILEGI DOBARA"...There were actors HRITHIK,FARHAN and ABHAY..the 3 friends discussing and enjoying a lot of things..the get together and the drink and smoke counters...I started missing my friends...i took ma cellphone and moved my eyes through the contacts list.AAA,BBBB,CCC.........PPP,QQ.RRR...Raj..i got it...quickly i touchd the calling symbol..connecting...Then it said "The reliance customer you are trying to call is currently switched off"...I cut the call and switched to the movie again..another 30 minutes passed away and again waved through the contact list...Saurav..i made a click to call and the number said out of service..then i thought of a last call to to my childhood friend Sandip and this time it ranged...thank god this time i didn't said "FUCK"..coz it got connected ..a sweet voice called from others side,"Hello!whose this?"
That was probably not sandip's mother's voice,i replied,"hello,actually i am dev,Sandips friend .can i talk to Sandip?"
"No,he is not at home right now."
"so,when he will be home?"
"by Sunday"
"any other number of him?"
"NO"
..and she cut the call..i couldn't understand that why she was sounding so angry..specially her big NO,hard to forget and unbearable at the same time...DAMN!she was really ......okay i will not use any filthy words for a lady but she was a BEEP!...
It was late night by then and my time to sleep,however its been years since i used to feel sleepy of my own .I took a bottle of carlsberg vintage beer and slept ***